I’m still in my cocoon. My protection. Simply because I am afraid that the hounds and the wolves will kill my soul. I watch this world slowly turning to violence, but I am still so optimistic that basic human kindness will win out over all this darkness. I have faith in people even if the world doesn’t appear to. I do.
I am fighting my way out of obscurity but frightened by what that entails. I’m a private person, but have been blessed with some kind of weird light that people tell me about over and over. I am ironically afraid of that light so I hide in the shadows and corners waiting until someone notices me.
I have become the caregiver and counselor of those around me, so I hide behind responsibility and love, but the Butterfly in me wants to come out and urges me on a daily basis to do so.
I was told by a long time friend that he felt lost because whenever he walked into a room, people experienced a field of tension around him and everyone immediately became uncomfortable. He asked me to show him how I did it. He said I could walk into a room and everybody immediately loved me. I never knew that about myself. I told him if that was true, it would only have to be because I project the energy of love. It’s that simple. I can see past the veils, the walls, the darkness in a soul and straight to their potential or their love core. I can see or feel rather past the pain, the scars and the wounds of life.
It hurts me when I see something or someone that I would gladly help only if I had the resources. I would buy the homeless a house, I would replace what others have lost, I would find a way to get someone to a safe place. All I have to offer are my words right now. How do I fight my way out of obscurity and not be afraid to walk upon the stage of life?